I've been dreaming lately - of beach vacations, bikini's, and cocktails. It partly has to do with the fact that our 10 year anniversary and my 40th birthday are this year so Brian and I are planning our first vacation alone together since the kids were born. OK, it has a lot to do with that, but I am excitedly dreaming of the cute sundresses, bathing suits (not a bikini though since the twins seriously messed up my stomach) that I will get to wear if I stay the course and meet my size goal. I can't wait for the real thing!
I am also day dreaming about all the things that will be or are easier because of the weight loss - skiing, playing tag with the kids, sitting on the floor for games & puzzles, riding rides, airplane seats...the list goes on. It's pretty amazing what doors open - physically, mentally, and emotionally - from losing a few pounds.
The funny thing about dreams is that you can be whatever size you want. I don't know about anyone else, but I don't tend to dream "skinny." However, with the hypnosis, she asks 2 questions on the very first session. First she asks how much weight you want to lose and second, what size you want to be. I think about these questions a lot and the meaning behind them. They conjure up an image of your "ideal" self or the self you want to be.
I was relatively conservative in my answers since I know what I can realistically maintain. As a result, one of my concerns is not being happy with what I think I want. I keep wondering - Will it be "skinny" enough? But, why worry about that now. Anything is better than what I was and it is all healthier. And really, I will only know the answer when I get there.
So, for today, I'm going with - "Don't Worry! Be Happy!"
Monday, January 7, 2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Jan 2nd - It may be a New Year, but the journey is well underway
Clearly, blogging is not my thing...I really want it to be, but it's simply not...life is so darn busy that I just am not finding or making the time to write. However, with the New Year upon us, I am going to try to write at least once a week.
Now, how to skinny down 4 months worth of weight loss into a single blog post? Well in 2 words - hypnosis ROCKS! I am down 4 pant sizes and I feel great. I still have a ways to go, but the impossible finally feels possible. I'm really looking forward to those cute size 10 red capris this summer! Heck, maybe I'll even shoot for size 8's! :)
I plan on going back to the hypnotist for a quick refresher course this month to keep the momentum going. However, I survived the holidays easy enough and, even though, I am starting to feel cravings and urges, I have not caved once. It's pretty amazing really.
You know the light at the end of the tunnel? I finally see it. For years, it's just been dark in that tunnel. In so many more ways than one. It's the sadness that becomes us when we feel completely overwhelmed by a task. It's the throw your hands up feeling and always giving in because the amount of weight to be lost is simply to much to bear. It's not feeling desirable. It's feeling like a failure, even though you know you are good at so many other things. But not this one thing. This one very important thing has always felt out of your reach.
And then it's not. You see the glimmer of hope and with it comes a sense of freedom. There is a lightness (literally and figuratively). There is a desire to be better - a better wife, a better mother, a better friend, a better employee...a better everything. There is a feeling of, well, balance that has come with the hypnosis and, that, I wouldn't change for the world. It was worth every penny. Luckily, Brian agrees. :)
I am finding new and creative ways to cook. I am more aware of what I feed my kids and making better choices for them. I'm not perfect with them yet, but one step at a time, right? And, we continue to make changes to eliminate the artificial ingredients and preservatives in our food and how we store them.
At the end of the day, what matters most to me is the fact that I am healthier for myself and for my family. My blood pressure and cholesterol are way down. I have more energy and there's a little spring in my step that hasn't been there for awhile. I am happy. I am balanced. And, most importantly, I believe!
I am looking forward to more posts and to a very skinny year!
~peace~
Now, how to skinny down 4 months worth of weight loss into a single blog post? Well in 2 words - hypnosis ROCKS! I am down 4 pant sizes and I feel great. I still have a ways to go, but the impossible finally feels possible. I'm really looking forward to those cute size 10 red capris this summer! Heck, maybe I'll even shoot for size 8's! :)
I plan on going back to the hypnotist for a quick refresher course this month to keep the momentum going. However, I survived the holidays easy enough and, even though, I am starting to feel cravings and urges, I have not caved once. It's pretty amazing really.
You know the light at the end of the tunnel? I finally see it. For years, it's just been dark in that tunnel. In so many more ways than one. It's the sadness that becomes us when we feel completely overwhelmed by a task. It's the throw your hands up feeling and always giving in because the amount of weight to be lost is simply to much to bear. It's not feeling desirable. It's feeling like a failure, even though you know you are good at so many other things. But not this one thing. This one very important thing has always felt out of your reach.
And then it's not. You see the glimmer of hope and with it comes a sense of freedom. There is a lightness (literally and figuratively). There is a desire to be better - a better wife, a better mother, a better friend, a better employee...a better everything. There is a feeling of, well, balance that has come with the hypnosis and, that, I wouldn't change for the world. It was worth every penny. Luckily, Brian agrees. :)
I am finding new and creative ways to cook. I am more aware of what I feed my kids and making better choices for them. I'm not perfect with them yet, but one step at a time, right? And, we continue to make changes to eliminate the artificial ingredients and preservatives in our food and how we store them.
At the end of the day, what matters most to me is the fact that I am healthier for myself and for my family. My blood pressure and cholesterol are way down. I have more energy and there's a little spring in my step that hasn't been there for awhile. I am happy. I am balanced. And, most importantly, I believe!
I am looking forward to more posts and to a very skinny year!
~peace~
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